Always the Last to Know

Always the Last to Know

Smile to hide the pain deep in my heart.
Smile to hide the sorrows you’ve left for me.
Winter comes and goes, but why is it so cold in my summer days?
Why is it so dark in my love?
Is it because of the way you left?
Or is it because I keep on thinking about someone who never really loved me?
Leaves fall, leaves grow, and leaves change colors.
The smile comes and fades away like those many seasons when I was always the last one to know when you were coming and going.
Your heart was cold, and your love was unkind to my empty heart.
Nevertheless, I’m always waiting for you no matter what happens.
Even if the snow falls and covers up the world, I’ll look for you.
I’ll look for that smile and happiness you once gave me because no matter what I do, I’ll never be able to forget you. 


 Copyrighted @ 2022. Taken from Into the Night: A Collection of Poems, by N.N. Nicky

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