N.N. Nicky - Writing: Short Stories, Poetry

  Autumn Love The afternoon has come with the laughter coming from far away. Footsteps are coming from down the distance, and happiness is coming like the falling leaves outside the autumn afternoon. I remember yesterday when we walked together on this road, and I remember the love we had last autumn. Today, there’s nothing here. Where has autumn gone to? Where has our love gone to? The leaves change colors every autumn, and they fall down, but they grow back next year. You’re gone, but you’ll never come back. I can wait for autumn to come back next year and watch as the leaves fade away with the winter snow. I can also wait for you, but you won’t come back. I can count the leaves falling beneath my feet, and I can wait for the train to come back. Nevertheless, I know that when the train stops at the station, you won’t be stepping out to greet me.

  George Michael is one of my favorite singer. I had a chance to go see him live many years ago before his death. Most importantly, I got to hear him sing one of my favorite songs from him, Father Figure. This song is just so powerful with the melodies, beats, and lyrics. "It's in your eyes...and love can't lie...no..."

  Another Try I know our love wasn’t perfect. I know you and I didn’t try our best to love each other, but I’m willing to take you back and love you with all my heart. I just need you to come back and love me. We can give our love another chance. We can go back to those happy days that we’d shared. If we give it another try, I know this time it’ll work, and we’ll make it work. Let us forget those sorrowful days when we fought, when you walked away from me, and when I walked away from our love. All we need is one more chance. Just another try for our love and we can both make it work this time. We can love each other like we’ve never done before in our lives. The roads ahead are long, but we shouldn’t give up and shouldn’t fall down. Just one more chance to love each other, and this time, I know we can go through and settle all the bad and ugly things. We’ll be happy. All it needs is for us to try and not give up on our love. 

Another one of my favorite songs that I listen to is Selena's Dreaming of You. I love this song. When the world is sleeping, I'll be thinking of you...

  Another Sad Goodbye If you take my hands and ask me to go with you, how would I feel? Will I have to forget those sorrowful days living without you? Will you love me all over again? Or will the heartbreak start all over? I don’t know if I’ll laugh or cry, and I don’t know how I’d feel if you tell me that you’ve always loved me. I want to believe and to love you again, but the pain of yesterday outlives the happiness of tomorrow. I know it was just another sad goodbye and another bad mistake. It was only one heartbreaking moment that you gave me, but whenever I think of it, my love for you just fades away. I want to hold and love you so much, but I can’t imagine you walking away again. If you could’ve walked away for no reason before, you’ll do it again. I feel that your love is a lit candle. I don’t know how long it’ll stay lit, but it’ll always go out when the time ends and will always end abruptly. It’ll be another say goodbye that I’d want to forget, just like the very first time.

  Another Day I knew all along that I was lying to myself and to my heart. I told myself you’d change and that you’d love me.  I lied to myself that you only hurt me because you loved me. However, lies after lies, I knew you didn’t love me the way I wanted you to love me. I loved you so much and didn’t want to face the truth. I didn’t want to live with reality because it was killing me painfully. Reality was an arrow that shot through my heart. You were the arrow, and you pierced through my heart. You left me crying, but you didn’t care to know. Maybe tomorrow you’ll come and love me. Another day in time, another moment in the future, you’ll come and tell me how much you love me. That’s the day I’m waiting for, and that’s the day I’m looking forward to when you give me those words of love. There’ll be another day when the pain inside me turns to love, and the tears of heartbreak will be the tears of laughter together with you. 

Caravansary, composed by Kitaro and sang by Richard Page. This is one of my all-time favorite songs that gives me inspiration to sit down and write my poems. There are songs that make you want to sit down and write what you feel in your heart. Caravansary is that song for me!

  Alone Alone, and where should I be? Alone, and where’s the love that I once had? Lonely with no one but you on my mind. Lonely knowing that all the tears I’ve saved for tomorrow now have come. I knew life wouldn't be the same after you said goodbye and decided to end our romance. How many more falling tears before you change your mind and return to me? How many more hours spending right here wishing and hoping before you come and erase these burning tears? If I have to sit here and count the passing hours just to get your love back, it’d be worth every second of my lonely life.

  Always the Last to Know Smile to hide the pain deep in my heart. Smile to hide the sorrows you’ve left for me. Winter comes and goes, but why is it so cold in my summer days? Why is it so dark in my love? Is it because of the way you left? Or is it because I keep on thinking about someone who never really loved me? Leaves fall, leaves grow, and leaves change colors. The smile comes and fades away like those many seasons when I was always the last one to know when you were coming and going. Your heart was cold, and your love was unkind to my empty heart. Nevertheless, I’m always waiting for you no matter what happens. Even if the snow falls and covers up the world, I’ll look for you. I’ll look for that smile and happiness you once gave me because no matter what I do, I’ll never be able to forget you. 

   Alone in the Night I can hear you calling my name, and it still sounds so sweet and tender, but is it really you? Is it the voice that I’ve loved for so many years? Are you dreaming of me, or is it just me thinking about you while I listen to the ocean waves? I can’t stop thinking about you, and I can’t close my eyes without hearing the sounds. I hear the beating of our hearts like when you were still with me. I can hear your heart so close, yet you’re so far away. Alone in the night, I hear everything from the water dripping to the flickering lights. When I was with you, I didn’t bother to notice all these things that were around me. Now that you’ve gone, I hear everything. Alone in the night, I hear you calling my name and talking like when you were lying next to me and were whispering those gentle words into my ears. Those words were lovely because they gave me warmth. Now, however, all I can feel is the cold wind blowing in my lonely heart of love.