N.N. Nicky - Writing: Short Stories, Poetry

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   Acceptance of Love When I fell in love with you, I knew it wasn't going to be like what people said. Some said love was hard, and some said love was easy. I didn't know the pain of loving someone until I met you. Love came so sudden, but with you, it was all I wanted. Your love was all that I dreamed of from a lover. You gave me tenderness and gave me all the passionate kisses when I wanted them and needed love. You loved me with all your heart, but when you walked away, those kisses vanished with the air I breathed. In the game of love, I’ve learned to accept. The acceptance of love, pain, tears, sorrows, and the heartbreaking moments when I’m without you. In the game of love, I’ve learned to accept the heartache and agony of losing someone I love dearly. Can you feel the pain inside me right now? Do you still love me like you once did? All the memories of love, pain, and sorrow still remain inside me. What are you feeling now that you’re without me in your arms?

    A Warm Hand The hands that felt so warm and the arms that held me so tenderly during those cold winter days, how I miss them. I let go of your love, and I can’t blame anyone but myself now that love has left me cold and lonely. I’m like a snowflake melting through the warmth of the sun. How can I ask you to come back when you might’ve already found someone else? I wish I had and could’ve given you more, but now all I can give myself are regrets. I regret that I’d let you go, and I regret how I could’ve loved you more and treated you better. I’d blamed you for not loving me right, but perhaps it has always been me who’d ignored your love. Now the word sorry seems to be like water. Once the water dries out, you can’t get it back. I wish I could take back the words I’d said to you. I wish I could bring back yesterday to make our love more beautiful. But yesterday is forever yesterday, and those days have forever left us. All I can do now is wish for something that can never come back.

   A Love Letter I’m sitting here writing to you with my heart and mind thinking of you. In that place where you’re now, what are you doing? Is the sun shining down on your beautiful smile? Is the wind blowing through your tender hair? Here, the rain’s falling, making it so sad when I have to remember of you. Tonight, when I close my eyes to sleep, I hope I’ll dream of you. In my dreams, I hope I’ll hear your voice and hear the laughter I’m missing. Tomorrow, when we meet again, I hope the sun will shine on us. I hope to walk with you down the roads hand in hand like we always do. Right now, I hope the love from my heart will fill you with joy when you read this letter. I’ll wait for you to write back to me in the loneliness of the night. Your love will brighten the dark starless nights. Your love will burn through the tears in the days to come. The love I have of you in my heart will melt away the fear and the loneliness of being without you. 

   In celebration of Poetry Month:  A Fool for You I was a fool in love when you walked into my life. You told me how much you loved me and how beautiful I looked. You told me how you couldn’t sleep when you closed your eyes because you kept on seeing my wonderful smile and lovely lips in your dreams. I was a fool when you told me how much my love meant to you. I was a fool to give you everything and to trust you. But how could I have not loved your words? The words that praised me and made me cry. When you told them to me, they went through my heart. I loved you with everything in my life. I was a doll, a puppet, and you were playing your lies on me. The tears of laughter turned to the tears of pain when you told me you never loved me. You never meant a single word you said. Everything you said, they were all so wonderful and so hard not to love. Those lies, they were the killers of love. A fool for you, and a fool to have loved you so dearly.  Even though you don’t love me, I still l

   In celebration of Poetry Month: A Dream Love is all but a dream when the first kiss comes to you and you wish and hope that it’d stay forever. Love is all but a dream when hand in hand we walk down the road on that one beautiful spring day. We watch the birds fly and watch the flowers blossom along the alley of love. Love is all but a dream when we watch the sun fades away with the afternoon hours. You hold me tight, and I hold you tight. Love is so sweet, yet when we close our eyes, love is all but darkness. A dream I have every night with you or without you. I dream of the kisses and happiness I’d have once I find you. And when I do find you, I’d find the heartbreak because one happy spring day, I’ll wake up without you. The flowers will die along the fading alley of love. Dreams will no longer float like our hearts when we’re in love. Love is all a big dream when one autumn day passing down the same alley, meeting face to face, we realize what we had together is nothing but a dre

 In celebration of Poetry Month: Acceptance of Love When I fell in love with you, I knew it wasn't going to be like what people said. Some said love was hard, and some said love was easy. I didn't know the pain of loving someone until I met you. Love came so sudden, but with you, it was all I wanted. Your love was all that I dreamed of from a lover. You gave me tenderness and gave me all the passionate kisses when I wanted them and needed love. You loved me with all your heart, but when you walked away, those kisses vanished with the air I breathed. In the game of love, I’ve learned to accept. The acceptance of love, pain, tears, sorrows, and the heartbreaking moments when I’m without you. In the game of love, I’ve learned to accept the heartache and agony of losing someone I love dearly. Can you feel the pain inside me right now? Do you still love me like you once did? All the memories of love, pain, and sorrow still remain inside me. What are you feeling now that you’re witho

 In celebration of Poetry Month: A Day Without Love There’ll be a day when the winter wind comes and sweeps away your love. There’ll be a day when the leaves begin to fall down on me from the dying autumn sky. There’ll be a day when the words that come out of your mouth will hurt me painfully, and this day, I’ll pray our love will last forever. There’ll be a song written for you when you walk away and break my heart in half. There’ll be melodies flying above the sky when that day comes and when you let go of my hands. I don’t know what I’ll do. I don’t know if I’ll cry or laugh when the word goodbye finally comes out of your mouth. A day without love will be a day without sunshine. It’ll be an afternoon without the laughter like those many afternoons when you laughed with me, when you called me up, and when you asked me if I loved you. A day without love will be an evening without the moon. A day without love will be a night without the stars that you once said were my smiles shining d

 April is Poetry Month.  Write a poem to celebrate :-D

Beside from Time   Nothing kills me more than time. Time goes so fast I wish I could stop time from passing by. I wish I could go back in time to relive those days with you. We knew each other not that long. I fell in love with you so quickly I didn’t bother to think twice before I agreed to marry you. I wish we could’ve waited longer because when the lights went out, you were gone. There were no more footsteps and no more sounds of your beating heart. You left me in a cold winter day. I couldn’t cry because my tears were gone. I couldn’t cry because my heart was frozen in time. I wish I could’ve known that your love for me was a big lie. Nevertheless, even though your love was a lie, there were happy times together that I still hold on to today. Time has made me grow older while I’m still in love with you. Time has killed me slowly in the pain of love.

Before You Say Goodbye   Before you say goodbye, look into my eyes and tell me you love me. Just one word, even if it’ll remain in my heart for the rest of my life while killing me softly. One simple word to let me remember of those happy days while I stand under the moon thinking about you. Before you say goodbye, sing me a song to remind me of your voice, a voice I’ve loved and will always love. When the radio comes on and I hear our love song, I’ll think it’s your voice singing to me. Before you say goodbye, look deep into my heart and see how much you’ve hurt me. See how much love you’ve placed on my hands, and now, you just take it all away. You take your love away and leave me here alone to fulfill my dreams. Say goodbye with a kiss, with just a simple word of love even if you never come back tomorrow. I want you to kiss me one last time. After you leave, I want to see you above the sky each night. Under the moonlight, I want to see you smiling down on m

Before the Sad Goodbye   I hear the phone ringing, but I’m too afraid to pick up. It could be you calling to say you don’t love me anymore. Maybe tonight, you’ll finally give up on our love. Maybe this time, you’ll finally say goodbye. I don’t want to live without you. Can you hear my heart begging for you to stay with me? Doesn’t yesterday remind you of anything that was wonderful between us? Can you still feel the love between us? Or have you found someone else who treats you better than I can? What else can I do to make you love me? I’ve given you everything and spent my life loving you more than anything. I have nothing else to give but this beating heart. What more can I give you in this life to make you love me? 

Before the Night Takes You Away   One day you came and told me you had to go. Silently, I looked at you with all my heart but couldn’t find the words to say. I didn’t know what you wanted to hear from me and didn’t know what I wanted to hear from you. I stood there in silence and watched in loneliness as you turned and walked away. I wanted to reach out and hold you back, but you slowly disappeared into the night. I stood there thinking about tomorrow without you not knowing what I’d said or done to make you walk away. I wondered if it was just you who wanted to go. I wanted to make you happy and wanted things to always be perfect, but I couldn’t be the person making all the things in this world as lovely as they could get. You never shared your thoughts with me and never told me what you were feeling inside your heart. Maybe I was always the one who thought too much about us. Maybe I was the one who thought we could be together forever. In reality, you were t

Before the Lights Go Out When winter comes, the wind will bring back the long-lost memories I want so much to forget. When winter comes, the snow will once again fill the ground, and I’ll begin to think about you. I’ll think about those winters we spent together, and then I’ll realize once again you’re gone. I want to be like spring, happy forever when the cold wind dies down. I want to be like spring, happy forever when the flowers grow and the birds fly up in that beautiful blue sky. But whenever I think about you, and whenever winter comes back, they haunt me like a ghost. I want to kiss and hold you, but it’s only a figment of my imagination because you’ll never come back to me. When winter comes, you won’t be here to kiss me when the lights go out in the dark quiet room. No more laughter from the heart, no more laughter from the love that you brought into my life, and no more you. There’ll only be a dark shadow lurking around my heart like your love killing me softly whenever wi

Before the Goodbye  Is it just me or has the world stopped turning?  All the laughter and happiness are now dead.  Am I the only one in this world without love? Should I close my eyes and forget about love?  Should I sleep to forget the pain you’ve inflicted on me?  All the hellos and goodbyes come and go like the rain that washes away the love and lies that live in your heart.  The rain also washes away the memories when I look back to yesterday.  They were memories that made me so happy, but what’s left now?  What’s there to think about?  There’s no one here but the four walls.  No one cares anymore, and no one here but the goodbye of love.

  The Sweetest Day, sang by Vanessa Williams is also another one of my all-time favorite love songs. I love this song a lot. Whenever I listen to this song, I remember of the 1990s when Music Box was popular. I think it was called Music Box, where viewers call into the station and pay a fee to have a song plays. This song was also played a lot on VH1 back then. The good old days of music...

  Because There Was You I remember every summer I spent with you and remember every summer kisses you placed on my lips. Sadly, I also remember when you left last summer while the grass was still green. The flowers were still fresh, but you decided that all our loving memories were not good enough for you. When you were with me, I was happy. Your love kept me alive, and when you weren’t here, I began to die day by day. I have no regrets falling in love with you. I’m sad that you’re not with me anymore. There’s only this pain you’ve left that makes me think of yesterday when we were together.

  I had a chance to see Vanessa Williams in concert in 2019 at the Kennedy Center. She sang some of my favorite songs of all time, and this is one of the classic love songs I really love from Vanessa Williams. She sang this song with Brian McKnight in the 1990s.

Be A Man Why do you have to hide? Why do we have to play all these games? Can you just look at me and tell me how much you care and love me? Why do you laugh when you see me? Why do you talk sweetly to me but can’t tell me the truth in your heart? Be a man, be bold, and tell me and don’t keep it all in your mind. I want you and love you, so don’t be afraid. I won’t turn away from your love because I love you. I love you when you look and smile at me, but it also hurts me to see you with someone else. It hurts me when you’re not telling me how you feel inside.

  Back to You I give back to you the roads of yesterday that we walked on when you took my hands and told me how much my love meant to you. I realize now that those loving words were all lies. I give back to you the love you gave to me from when our love first grew. I gave you all my trust and my life and threw myself into your arms. I thought you really cared for me, but I was wrong. You walked away faster than the falling rain and faster than my beating heart. Now everything has come together. Everything is in place, piece by piece and lie by lie. All the sad thoughts of you and me, which were once lovely thoughts, have now faded away with you.