N.N. Nicky - Writing: Short Stories, Poetry

  Back to Loneliness I’ve sat through so many hours thinking about you. I’ve walked so many streets wondering about you and thinking about those dreamy eyes. And I’m wondering if I’d ever see you again. The weather has changed, and the hours are coming to an end. I sing to myself as I remember of those moments when you took my hands and I closed my eyes to fall into the night with you. Now, I’m holding my own hands and falling into my own dreams without you. I guess this means back to loneliness. Back to the seconds and minutes of living without love. I live these moments like I used to before you entered my life and made it brand new. Today, I live without you, without love, without worries, and without the warmth. Back to loneliness of those moments when I saw you, but I didn’t take your hands. Back to those moments when our eyes didn’t meet, when the words of love didn’t come from you, and when everything was innocent and quiet. I’ll miss those moments and miss you as I walk through

  Baby, Try Try, baby, try, just to give us one more chance. Try, baby, try, to go back to our loving days. Our love has gone far from what we want it to be. If you’d just try, we can be together again. All we need is a chance for our love to grow. We’ve been waiting for all our lives to get through this, but if there isn’t a chance, we won’t get through it. Forget the pain that we’d created for each other. Close your eyes and forget every sad moments when we were together. Let yourself be free, give us a chance, and you’ll see that it’s worth trying. If we try to be lovers once again, there’ll be no regret, because our love will never be like it was before. Don’t give up on our love. Love is always here with us. So, baby, try again. Don’t give up on our days and chances because love is forever here with us. Love will always be there when you believe. When life is empty, forget about yesterday. Hold out your hands to me, give us a chance, and love will be here. So, don’t worry and be h

  Autumn Love The afternoon has come with the laughter coming from far away. Footsteps are coming from down the distance, and happiness is coming like the falling leaves outside the autumn afternoon. I remember yesterday when we walked together on this road, and I remember the love we had last autumn. Today, there’s nothing here. Where has autumn gone to? Where has our love gone to? The leaves change colors every autumn, and they fall down, but they grow back next year. You’re gone, but you’ll never come back. I can wait for autumn to come back next year and watch as the leaves fade away with the winter snow. I can also wait for you, but you won’t come back. I can count the leaves falling beneath my feet, and I can wait for the train to come back. Nevertheless, I know that when the train stops at the station, you won’t be stepping out to greet me.

  George Michael is one of my favorite singer. I had a chance to go see him live many years ago before his death. Most importantly, I got to hear him sing one of my favorite songs from him, Father Figure. This song is just so powerful with the melodies, beats, and lyrics. "It's in your eyes...and love can't lie...no..."

  Another Try I know our love wasn’t perfect. I know you and I didn’t try our best to love each other, but I’m willing to take you back and love you with all my heart. I just need you to come back and love me. We can give our love another chance. We can go back to those happy days that we’d shared. If we give it another try, I know this time it’ll work, and we’ll make it work. Let us forget those sorrowful days when we fought, when you walked away from me, and when I walked away from our love. All we need is one more chance. Just another try for our love and we can both make it work this time. We can love each other like we’ve never done before in our lives. The roads ahead are long, but we shouldn’t give up and shouldn’t fall down. Just one more chance to love each other, and this time, I know we can go through and settle all the bad and ugly things. We’ll be happy. All it needs is for us to try and not give up on our love. 

Another one of my favorite songs that I listen to is Selena's Dreaming of You. I love this song. When the world is sleeping, I'll be thinking of you...

  Another Sad Goodbye If you take my hands and ask me to go with you, how would I feel? Will I have to forget those sorrowful days living without you? Will you love me all over again? Or will the heartbreak start all over? I don’t know if I’ll laugh or cry, and I don’t know how I’d feel if you tell me that you’ve always loved me. I want to believe and to love you again, but the pain of yesterday outlives the happiness of tomorrow. I know it was just another sad goodbye and another bad mistake. It was only one heartbreaking moment that you gave me, but whenever I think of it, my love for you just fades away. I want to hold and love you so much, but I can’t imagine you walking away again. If you could’ve walked away for no reason before, you’ll do it again. I feel that your love is a lit candle. I don’t know how long it’ll stay lit, but it’ll always go out when the time ends and will always end abruptly. It’ll be another say goodbye that I’d want to forget, just like the very first time.

  Another Day I knew all along that I was lying to myself and to my heart. I told myself you’d change and that you’d love me.  I lied to myself that you only hurt me because you loved me. However, lies after lies, I knew you didn’t love me the way I wanted you to love me. I loved you so much and didn’t want to face the truth. I didn’t want to live with reality because it was killing me painfully. Reality was an arrow that shot through my heart. You were the arrow, and you pierced through my heart. You left me crying, but you didn’t care to know. Maybe tomorrow you’ll come and love me. Another day in time, another moment in the future, you’ll come and tell me how much you love me. That’s the day I’m waiting for, and that’s the day I’m looking forward to when you give me those words of love. There’ll be another day when the pain inside me turns to love, and the tears of heartbreak will be the tears of laughter together with you. 

Caravansary, composed by Kitaro and sang by Richard Page. This is one of my all-time favorite songs that gives me inspiration to sit down and write my poems. There are songs that make you want to sit down and write what you feel in your heart. Caravansary is that song for me!

  Alone Alone, and where should I be? Alone, and where’s the love that I once had? Lonely with no one but you on my mind. Lonely knowing that all the tears I’ve saved for tomorrow now have come. I knew life wouldn't be the same after you said goodbye and decided to end our romance. How many more falling tears before you change your mind and return to me? How many more hours spending right here wishing and hoping before you come and erase these burning tears? If I have to sit here and count the passing hours just to get your love back, it’d be worth every second of my lonely life.

  Always the Last to Know Smile to hide the pain deep in my heart. Smile to hide the sorrows you’ve left for me. Winter comes and goes, but why is it so cold in my summer days? Why is it so dark in my love? Is it because of the way you left? Or is it because I keep on thinking about someone who never really loved me? Leaves fall, leaves grow, and leaves change colors. The smile comes and fades away like those many seasons when I was always the last one to know when you were coming and going. Your heart was cold, and your love was unkind to my empty heart. Nevertheless, I’m always waiting for you no matter what happens. Even if the snow falls and covers up the world, I’ll look for you. I’ll look for that smile and happiness you once gave me because no matter what I do, I’ll never be able to forget you. 

   Alone in the Night I can hear you calling my name, and it still sounds so sweet and tender, but is it really you? Is it the voice that I’ve loved for so many years? Are you dreaming of me, or is it just me thinking about you while I listen to the ocean waves? I can’t stop thinking about you, and I can’t close my eyes without hearing the sounds. I hear the beating of our hearts like when you were still with me. I can hear your heart so close, yet you’re so far away. Alone in the night, I hear everything from the water dripping to the flickering lights. When I was with you, I didn’t bother to notice all these things that were around me. Now that you’ve gone, I hear everything. Alone in the night, I hear you calling my name and talking like when you were lying next to me and were whispering those gentle words into my ears. Those words were lovely because they gave me warmth. Now, however, all I can feel is the cold wind blowing in my lonely heart of love.

  Alone Again with Love I remember the times we were together. They were the happiest moments in my life. All those memories were so happy, but now, there’s nothing here with me. I’m alone without you, with no one to talk to. Can you see you’ve hurt me badly? My love for you was true. What’s left to say when you’ve left me? Nights are cold without you, and sometimes I wish I’d never met you because then my heart won’t be broken right now. Had I never met you, then my dream won’t be dying today, and I’d be happy without you here. Had you not loved me the way you did, I wouldn’t have to remember of those loving nights together. Had you not spent those nights holding me tightly and sweetly, I wouldn’t be in pain today. Now, there’s only an image of you and nothing else. The love songs and the passing hours remind me of you. Sometimes I wish I’d never met you because then my heart wouldn’t be broken and my dreams wouldn’t be lost. And alone, I’d be happier knowing tomorrow will be a bright

  All the Way in Love When the lights go out, I’ll think of you. Tomorrow, when the snow begins to fall, there’ll be my footsteps in the snow. I’ll try to remember of those passing moments of the love I miss so dearly. Tomorrow, when the nights come and the lights go up, the roads will be empty. The streets will be lit while I walk alone on the quiet roads. Inside the happy homes, sweet dreams will be made. I’ll walk as the snow falls, and I’ll remember of those days when we walked in the snow. I’ll think back to when we were watching the falling snow, and I’ll think about the love that I’d cherished. Today, that love has died while the snow continues to fall. The footsteps have disappeared as I wander these streets while I think about you, the person whom I’d loved all the way without regrets.

You can now purchase my first published book on Amazon - Into the Night: A Collection of Poems

You can now purchase my short story collections novel on Amazon: Red Oak: A Collection of Short Stories

  All the Rain in Love Why is my love life always on such shaky ground? I always try so hard to find the right person who’d love me, who I’d truly love, and someone who’d be there for me and understand my feelings. However, I always seem to find true love for one happy moment but then quickly lose that love. I thought I found the person I’ve been looking for when I met you. Happiness was all around us after we fell in love. We could’ve had everything, but then you left. Maybe I was living in too much happiness. Maybe I was in my own reality because love could never be happiness forever. Sometimes it takes several heartbreaks and happy and sad moments before you find true love. But how many more heartbreaks do I have to go through before I find the right one? I always find happiness in love like the sun shining down on me. However, at the end of the day, I also end up finding the rain falling down and washing away my love. 

  All That’s Left One small mistake and we fell apart. One little lie and you said goodbye. It wasn’t my fault that I gave you all my love. It wasn’t foolishness when I looked into your eyes and told you I loved you. You were the only person who really brought the word joy into my life. All that’s left now is a little memory of us like the shadows that we left on those walls. I think about those nights when we walked home as you sang to me. Now the nights come but I’m walking home alone. All that’s left are lyrics to our love songs. The melodies have died like the end of the world. There’s nothing left here but the memory of that warm day when you came into my life. I can always sing the love songs to myself, but they’ll never sound the same like when you sang them to me. 

  All Out of Tears What is all this crying for? Even if we cry, love has passed by us. Love is over, dreams are gone, and hopes are dead. Why do we cry when tomorrow has come to an end? The tears we’ve saved for tomorrow have come and washed away all the memories of when love first blossomed. We’re out of tears for our lost love and for the pain we’ve put on each other. The time we’ve saved now has gone wasted along the roads that we’ve shared. 

  Age Seventeen I learned to love when I was seventeen. I learned to love like I had never before. The one who taught me how to love was you. You guided me through the sweet words and poems that you dedicated to me. I thought my first love would be complete, but I was wrong. I was too young to overcome the pain of losing you at seventeen. I wanted to be with you forever because you were so wonderful, so tender, and so beautiful. Your words, and even your lies, kept me happy. The day you left me, I didn't know what to do. I hung to the walls crying and remembering every last minute with you. I looked into the mirror and asked why I was without you, but there was no one to answer me. I was seventeen and loving someone was too much for me. Loving someone was great at first, but I didn't ask for pain and tears. If only love was there for me when you broke me down. 

 

  Afternoon of Love The voice that sang to me during those beautiful summer days now remains silent in the stillness of the afternoon. The loneliness of those afternoons without love now creeps up to me. The quiet footsteps were wonderful when you walked into my life. Those beautiful summer days, hand in hand, we walked along the roads of love. They bring back many memories, but now you’re gone. The memories now slowly die away. What will life be like without you beside me? What will tomorrow end with when there’s no one beside me? What’s left when I can never look you in your eyes and tell you how much I love you? 

  Acceptance of Love When I fell in love with you, I knew it wasn't going to be like what people said. Some said love was hard, and some said love was easy. I didn't know the pain of loving someone until I met you. Love came so sudden, but with you, it was all I wanted. Your love was all that I dreamed of from a lover. You gave me tenderness and gave me all the passionate kisses when I wanted them and needed love. You loved me with all your heart, but when you walked away, those kisses vanished with the air I breathed. In the game of love, I’ve learned to accept. The acceptance of love, pain, tears, sorrows, and the heartbreaking moments when I’m without you. In the game of love, I’ve learned to accept the heartache and agony of losing someone I love dearly. Can you feel the pain inside me right now? Do you still love me like you once did? All the memories of love, pain, and sorrow still remain inside me. What are you feeling now that you’re without me in your arms?

   A Warm Hand The hands that felt so warm and the arms that held me so tenderly during those cold winter days, how I miss them. I let go of your love, and I can’t blame anyone but myself now that love has left me cold and lonely. I’m like a snowflake melting through the warmth of the sun. How can I ask you to come back when you might’ve already found someone else? I wish I had and could’ve given you more, but now all I can give myself are regrets. I regret that I’d let you go, and I regret how I could’ve loved you more and treated you better. I’d blamed you for not loving me right, but perhaps it has always been me who’d ignored your love. Now the word sorry seems to be like water. Once the water dries out, you can’t get it back. I wish I could take back the words I’d said to you. I wish I could bring back yesterday to make our love more beautiful. But yesterday is forever yesterday, and those days have forever left us. All I can do now is wish for something that can never come back. 

 

  A Love Letter I’m sitting here writing to you with my heart and mind thinking of you. In that place where you’re now, what are you doing? Is the sun shining down on your beautiful smile? Is the wind blowing through your tender hair? Here, the rain’s falling, making it so sad when I have to remember of you. Tonight, when I close my eyes to sleep, I hope I’ll dream of you. In my dreams, I hope I’ll hear your voice and hear the laughter I’m missing. Tomorrow, when we meet again, I hope the sun will shine on us. I hope to walk with you down the roads hand in hand like we always do. Right now, I hope the love from my heart will fill you with joy when you read this letter. I’ll wait for you to write back to me in the loneliness of the night. Your love will brighten the dark starless nights. Your love will burn through the tears in the days to come. The love I have of you in my heart will melt away the fear and the loneliness of being without you. 

  A Fool in Love I had never loved anyone like I loved you. Before you came into my life, I never had so many hopes and dreams for anyone or anything. You lifted me up, and you were there with me through all the happiness. You were there when I was down, when I needed to talk to someone. I loved you so much. We used to sit and listen to the music, and you’d dedicated those love songs to me. Our lives were perfect. You gave me everything and never let me feel lonely. When I was in pain, you were the one who gave me the love I needed. Now I sit here all alone in the cold dark empty room listening to the songs. I cry for yesterday. I cry because I’m a fool in loving you.  I’m a fool in love now that you’ve walked away before the songs are finished. You walked away before the night is over. A fool in love to not know the reality of loving you through all the lies you gave me. Your lies pierced through my heart when one day you came into my life filled with happiness, but then you walked aw

   A Song for Our Love In life, who doesn’t have heartbreaks? In life, who doesn’t have that very first time when you sit together with your love and listen to that wonderful love song on the radio? Who doesn’t have that one moment when your love misses your meeting time and you’re standing there waiting in frustration? Everyone has them, and sometimes it turns out bad. With us, the love songs on the radio were very special, especially during those nights when we were far from each other. We sat and listened to those sweet melodies while thinking about each other. Those love songs were our lives, and they were memories I could never forget. I guess saying goodbye is never easy when there are so many memories and dreams in our love. But all dreams and memories must die. No love songs last forever, and no one can see tomorrow now that our love has ended. The melodies have died with our love. I want to sing a song for our love, but whenever I sing, I can’t seem to find any words in my hea

 A Fool for You I was a fool in love when you walked into my life. You told me how much you loved me and how beautiful I looked. You told me how you couldn’t sleep when you closed your eyes because you kept on seeing my wonderful smile and lovely lips in your dreams. I was a fool when you told me how much my love meant to you. I was a fool to give you everything and to trust you. But how could I have not loved your words? The words that praised me and made me cry. When you told them to me, they went through my heart. I loved you with everything in my life. I was a doll, a puppet, and you were playing your lies on me. The tears of laughter turned to the tears of pain when you told me you never loved me. You never meant a single word you said. Everything you said, they were all so wonderful and so hard not to love. Those lies, they were the killers of love. A fool for you, and a fool to have loved you so dearly.  Even though you don’t love me, I still love you. I’ve forgotten about all t

 

A Dream Love is all but a dream when the first kiss comes to you and you wish and hope that it’d stay forever. Love is all but a dream when hand in hand we walk down the road on that one beautiful spring day. We watch the birds fly and watch the flowers blossom along the alley of love. Love is all but a dream when we watch the sun fades away with the afternoon hours. You hold me tight, and I hold you tight. Love is so sweet, yet when we close our eyes, love is all but darkness. A dream I have every night with you or without you. I dream of the kisses and happiness I’d have once I find you. And when I do find you, I’d find the heartbreak because one happy spring day, I’ll wake up without you. The flowers will die along the fading alley of love. Dreams will no longer float like our hearts when we’re in love. Love is all a big dream when one autumn day passing down the same alley, meeting face to face, we realize what we had together is nothing but a dream. Our love was just an illusion o

A Day Without Love There’ll be a day when the winter wind comes and sweeps away your love. There’ll be a day when the leaves begin to fall down on me from the dying autumn sky. There’ll be a day when the words that come out of your mouth will hurt me painfully, and this day, I’ll pray our love will last forever. There’ll be a song written for you when you walk away and break my heart in half. There’ll be melodies flying above the sky when that day comes and when you let go of my hands. I don’t know what I’ll do. I don’t know if I’ll cry or laugh when the word goodbye finally comes out of your mouth. A day without love will be a day without sunshine. It’ll be an afternoon without the laughter like those many afternoons when you laughed with me, when you called me up, and when you asked me if I loved you. A day without love will be an evening without the moon. A day without love will be a night without the stars that you once said were my smiles shining down on you. A day without love wi

 

  Because There Was You "When you were with me, I was happy. Your love kept me alive, and when you weren’t here, I began to die day by day. I have no regrets falling in love with you. I’m sad that you’re not with me anymore."

 

Be A Man "I want you and love you, so don’t be afraid. I won’t turn away from your love because I love you. I love you when you look and smile at me, but it also hurts me to see you with someone else. It hurts me when you’re not telling me how you feel inside."

Back to You "I thought you really cared for me, but I was wrong. You walked away faster than the falling rain and faster than my beating heart. Now everything has come together. Everything is in place, piece by piece and lie by lie."

 

Back to Loneliness "Now, I’m holding my own hands and falling into my own dreams without you. I guess this means back to loneliness. Back to the seconds and minutes of living without love. I live these moments like I used to before you entered my life and made it brand new. Today, I live without you, without love, without worries, and without the warmth. Back to loneliness of those moments when I saw you, but I didn’t take your hands. Back to those moments when our eyes didn’t meet, when the words of love didn’t come from you, and when everything was innocent and quiet."

  Baby, Try "Try, baby, try, just to give us one more chance. Try, baby, try, to go back to our loving days. Our love has gone far from what we want it to be. If you’d just try, we can be together again. All we need is a chance for our love to grow. We’ve been waiting for all our lives to get through this, but if there isn’t a chance, we won’t get through it. Forget the pain that we’d created for each other."

 

  Autumn Without You The wind rattling, the smell of the leaves, and the feelings I have when autumn comes. It’s the season of warmth and hopes. When the wind comes rattling along the emptiness, I suddenly think the wind is your footsteps. I walk along the road looking back and forth as the cars pass by me. I see two people sitting in the car, and I always think they’re you and me.

 

Autumn Love "The afternoon has come with the laughter coming from far away. Footsteps are coming from down the distance, and happiness is coming like the falling leaves outside the autumn afternoon. I remember yesterday when we walked together on this road, and I remember the love we had last autumn. Today, there’s nothing here."

 

Another Try "Let us forget those sorrowful days when we fought, when you walked away from me, and when I walked away from our love. All we need is one more chance. Just another try for our love and we can both make it work this time. We can love each other like we’ve never done before in our lives. The roads ahead are long, but we shouldn’t give up and shouldn’t fall down."

 

 Another Sad Goodbye "I know it was just another sad goodbye and another bad mistake. It was only one heartbreaking moment that you gave me, but whenever I think of it, my love for you just fades away. I want to hold and love you so much, but I can’t imagine you walking away again. If you could’ve walked away for no reason before, you’ll do it again."

 

Another Day "I knew all along that I was lying to myself and to my heart. I told myself you’d change and that you’d love me.  I lied to myself that you only hurt me because you loved me. However, lies after lies, I knew you didn’t love me the way I wanted you to love me."

Alone "How many more falling tears before you change your mind and return to me? How many more hours spending right here wishing and hoping before you come and erase these burning tears? If I have to sit here and count the passing hours just to get your love back, it’d be worth every second of my lonely life."

 

Always the Last to Know Smile to hide the pain deep in my heart. Smile to hide the sorrows you’ve left for me. Winter comes and goes, but why is it so cold in my summer days? Why is it so dark in my love? Is it because of the way you left? Or is it because I keep on thinking about someone who never really loved me?

 Alone in the Night I can’t stop thinking about you, and I can’t close my eyes without hearing the sounds. I hear the beating of our hearts like when you were still with me. I can hear your heart so close, yet you’re so far away. Alone in the night, I hear everything from the water dripping to the flickering lights.

 

  Alone Again with Love What’s left to say when you’ve left me? Nights are cold without you, and sometimes I wish I’d never met you because then my heart won’t be broken right now. Had I never met you, then my dream won’t be dying today, and I’d be happy without you here. Had you not loved me the way you did, I wouldn’t have to remember of those loving nights together. Had you not spent those nights holding me tightly and sweetly, I wouldn’t be in pain today.

  All the Way in Love When the lights go out, I’ll think of you. Tomorrow, when the snow begins to fall, there’ll be my footsteps in the snow. I’ll try to remember of those passing moments of the love I miss so dearly. Tomorrow, when the nights come and the lights go up, the roads will be empty.

  All the Rain in Love Sometimes it takes several heartbreaks and happy and sad moments before you find true love. But how many more heartbreaks do I have to go through before I find the right one? I always find happiness in love like the sun shining down on me. However, at the end of the day, I also end up finding the rain falling down and washing away my love. 

"I think about those nights when we walked home as you sang to me. Now the nights come but I’m walking home alone. All that’s left are lyrics to our love songs. The melodies have died like the end of the world."

"Why do we cry when tomorrow has come to an end? The tears we’ve saved for tomorrow have come and washed away all the memories of when love first blossomed. We’re out of tears for our lost love and for the pain we’ve put on each other."

"The day you left me, I didn't know what to do. I hung to the walls crying and remembering every last minute with you. I looked into the mirror and asked why I was without you, but there was no one to answer me. I was seventeen and loving someone was too much for me."

...Those beautiful summer days, hand in hand, we walked along the roads of love. They bring back many memories, but now you’re gone. The memories now slowly die away...

Acceptance of Love You gave me tenderness and gave me all the passionate kisses when I wanted them and needed love. You loved me with all your heart, but when you walked away, those kisses vanished with the air I breathed. In the game of love, I’ve learned to accept. The acceptance of love, pain, tears, sorrows, and the heartbreaking moments when I’m without you.

A Warm Hand I regret that I’d let you go, and I regret how I could’ve loved you more and treated you better. I’d blamed you for not loving me right, but perhaps it has always been me who’d ignored your love. Now the word sorry seems to be like water. Once the water dries out, you can’t get it back. I wish I could take back the words I’d said to you.

A Love Letter I’m sitting here writing to you with my heart and mind thinking of you. In that place where you’re now, what are you doing? Is the sun shining down on your beautiful smile? Is the wind blowing through your tender hair? Here, the rain’s falling, making it so sad when I have to remember of you.

A Song for Our Love "With us, the love songs on the radio were very special, especially during those nights when we were far from each other. We sat and listened to those sweet melodies while thinking about each other. Those love songs were our lives, and they were memories I could never forget. I guess saying goodbye is never easy when there are so many memories and dreams in our love. But all dreams and memories must die."

 A Fool in Love "When I was in pain, you were the one who gave me the love I needed. Now I sit here all alone in the cold dark empty room listening to the songs. I cry for yesterday. I cry because I’m a fool in loving you.  I’m a fool in love now that you’ve walked away before the songs are finished. You walked away before the night is over."

 A Fool for You "I was a fool when you told me how much my love meant to you. I was a fool to give you everything and to trust you. But how could I have not loved your words? The words that praised me and made me cry."

A Dream "Love is so sweet, yet when we close our eyes, love is all but darkness. A dream I have every night with you or without you. I dream of the kisses and happiness I’d have once I find you. And when I do find you, I’d find the heartbreak because one happy spring day, I’ll wake up without you. The flowers will die along the fading alley of love."

  A Day Without Love "A day without love will be an evening without the moon. A day without love will be a night without the stars that you once said were my smiles shining down on you. A day without love will be a day when I can’t think of anyone else but you. A day without love will be a day when I remember of the heartbreak you’ve brought to me."

Because There Was You I remember every summer I spent with you and remember every summer kisses you placed on my lips. Sadly, I also remember when you left last summer while the grass was still green. The flowers were still fresh, but you decided that all our loving memories were not good enough for you. When you were with me, I was happy. Your love kept me alive, and when you weren’t here, I began to die day by day. I have no regrets falling in love with you. I’m sad that you’re not with me anymore. There’s only this pain you’ve left that makes me think of yesterday when we were together.

Be A Man Why do you have to hide? Why do we have to play all these games? Can you just look at me and tell me how much you care and love me? Why do you laugh when you see me? Why do you talk sweetly to me but can’t tell me the truth in your heart? Be a man, be bold, and tell me and don’t keep it all in your mind. I want you and love you, so don’t be afraid. I won’t turn away from your love because I love you. I love you when you look and smile at me, but it also hurts me to see you with someone else. It hurts me when you’re not telling me how you feel inside.

Back to You I give back to you the roads of yesterday that we walked on when you took my hands and told me how much my love meant to you. I realize now that those loving words were all lies. I give back to you the love you gave to me from when our love first grew. I gave you all my trust and my life and threw myself into your arms. I thought you really cared for me, but I was wrong. You walked away faster than the falling rain and faster than my beating heart. Now everything has come together. Everything is in place, piece by piece and lie by lie. All the sad thoughts of you and me, which were once lovely thoughts, have now faded away with you. 

Back to Loneliness I’ve sat through so many hours thinking about you. I’ve walked so many streets wondering about you and thinking about those dreamy eyes. And I’m wondering if I’d ever see you again. The weather has changed, and the hours are coming to an end. I sing to myself as I remember of those moments when you took my hands and I closed my eyes to fall into the night with you. Now, I’m holding my own hands and falling into my own dreams without you. I guess this means back to loneliness. Back to the seconds and minutes of living without love. I live these moments like I used to before you entered my life and made it brand new. Today, I live without you, without love, without worries, and without the warmth. Back to loneliness of those moments when I saw you, but I didn’t take your hands. Back to those moments when our eyes didn’t meet, when the words of love didn’t come from you, and when everything was innocent and quiet. I’ll miss those moments and miss you as I walk through t

Baby, Try Try, baby, try, just to give us one more chance. Try, baby, try, to go back to our loving days. Our love has gone far from what we want it to be. If you’d just try, we can be together again. All we need is a chance for our love to grow. We’ve been waiting for all our lives to get through this, but if there isn’t a chance, we won’t get through it. Forget the pain that we’d created for each other. Close your eyes and forget every sad moments when we were together. Let yourself be free, give us a chance, and you’ll see that it’s worth trying. If we try to be lovers once again, there’ll be no regret, because our love will never be like it was before. Don’t give up on our love. Love is always here with us. So, baby, try again. Don’t give up on our days and chances because love is forever here with us. Love will always be there when you believe. When life is empty, forget about yesterday. Hold out your hands to me, give us a chance, and love will be here. So, don’t worry and be h

A Fool in Love "When I was in pain, you were the one who gave me the love I needed. Now I sit here all alone in the cold dark empty room listening to the songs. I cry for yesterday. I cry because I’m a fool in loving you.  I’m a fool in love now that you’ve walked away before the songs are finished."

 A Fool for You "I was a fool in love when you walked into my life.  You told me how much you loved me and how beautiful I looked. You told me how you couldn’t sleep when you closed your eyes because you kept on seeing my wonderful smile and lovely lips in your dreams. I was a fool when you told me how much my love meant to you. I was a fool to give you everything and to trust you."

A Dream "Love is all but a dream when the first kiss comes to you and you wish and hope that it’d stay forever. Love is all but a dream when hand in hand we walk down the road on that one beautiful spring day. We watch the birds fly and watch the flowers blossom along the alley of love."

A Day Without Love "There’ll be a day when the winter wind comes and sweeps away your love. There’ll be a day when the leaves begin to fall down on me from the dying autumn sky. There’ll be a day when the words that come out of your mouth will hurt me painfully, and this day, I’ll pray our love will last forever."

  Autumn Without You The wind rattling, the smell of the leaves, and the feelings I have when autumn comes. It’s the season of warmth and hopes. When the wind comes rattling along the emptiness, I suddenly think the wind is your footsteps. I walk along the road looking back and forth as the cars pass by me. I see two people sitting in the car, and I always think they’re you and me. We’re inside the car talking, having fun, and joking. Then, I remember that autumn is here, but you’re not. Autumn without you is like the trees without the leaves, and the leaves without their colors. I’m standing here in the middle of nowhere without you. Living without you is like living without the air, without my blood, and without my heart. You’ve left me standing here looking up at the blue sky thinking about us. I’m like a lonely leaf on a tree. I’m beginning to fall and fade out like the colors on the leaves. When the rain comes, it’ll wash me away like washing your love farther and farther away f

Autumn Love The afternoon has come with the laughter coming from far away. Footsteps are coming from down the distance, and happiness is coming like the falling leaves outside the autumn afternoon. I remember yesterday when we walked together on this road, and I remember the love we had last autumn. Today, there’s nothing here. Where has autumn gone to? Where has our love gone to? The leaves change colors every autumn, and they fall down, but they grow back next year. You’re gone, but you’ll never come back. I can wait for autumn to come back next year and watch as the leaves fade away with the winter snow. I can also wait for you, but you won’t come back. I can count the leaves falling beneath my feet, and I can wait for the train to come back. Nevertheless, I know that when the train stops at the station, you won’t be stepping out to greet me.

Another Try I know our love wasn’t perfect. I know you and I didn’t try our best to love each other, but I’m willing to take you back and love you with all my heart. I just need you to come back and love me. We can give our love another chance. We can go back to those happy days that we’d shared. If we give it another try, I know this time it’ll work, and we’ll make it work. Let us forget those sorrowful days when we fought, when you walked away from me, and when I walked away from our love. All we need is one more chance. Just another try for our love and we can both make it work this time. We can love each other like we’ve never done before in our lives. The roads ahead are long, but we shouldn’t give up and shouldn’t fall down. Just one more chance to love each other, and this time, I know we can go through and settle all the bad and ugly things. We’ll be happy. All it needs is for us to try and not give up on our love. 

Another Sad Goodbye If you take my hands and ask me to go with you, how would I feel? Will I have to forget those sorrowful days living without you? Will you love me all over again? Or will the heartbreak start all over? I don’t know if I’ll laugh or cry, and I don’t know how I’d feel if you tell me that you’ve always loved me. I want to believe and to love you again, but the pain of yesterday outlives the happiness of tomorrow. I know it was just another sad goodbye and another bad mistake. It was only one heartbreaking moment that you gave me, but whenever I think of it, my love for you just fades away. I want to hold and love you so much, but I can’t imagine you walking away again. If you could’ve walked away for no reason before, you’ll do it again. I feel that your love is a lit candle. I don’t know how long it’ll stay lit, but it’ll always go out when the time ends and will always end abruptly. It’ll be another say goodbye that I’d want to forget, just like the very first time. 

Another Day I knew all along that I was lying to myself and to my heart. I told myself you’d change and that you’d love me.  I lied to myself that you only hurt me because you loved me. However, lies after lies, I knew you didn’t love me the way I wanted you to love me. I loved you so much and didn’t want to face the truth. I didn’t want to live with reality because it was killing me painfully. Reality was an arrow that shot through my heart. You were the arrow, and you pierced through my heart. You left me crying, but you didn’t care to know. Maybe tomorrow you’ll come and love me. Another day in time, another moment in the future, you’ll come and tell me how much you love me. That’s the day I’m waiting for, and that’s the day I’m looking forward to when you give me those words of love. There’ll be another day when the pain inside me turns to love, and the tears of heartbreak will be the tears of laughter together with you. 

Alone Alone, and where should I be? Alone, and where’s the love that I once had? Lonely with no one but you on my mind. Lonely knowing that all the tears I’ve saved for tomorrow now have come. I knew life wouldn't be the same after you said goodbye and decided to end our romance. How many more falling tears before you change your mind and return to me? How many more hours spending right here wishing and hoping before you come and erase these burning tears? If I have to sit here and count the passing hours just to get your love back, it’d be worth every second of my lonely life.

Always the Last to Know Smile to hide the pain deep in my heart. Smile to hide the sorrows you’ve left for me. Winter comes and goes, but why is it so cold in my summer days? Why is it so dark in my love? Is it because of the way you left? Or is it because I keep on thinking about someone who never really loved me? Leaves fall, leaves grow, and leaves change colors. The smile comes and fades away like those many seasons when I was always the last one to know when you were coming and going. Your heart was cold, and your love was unkind to my empty heart. Nevertheless, I’m always waiting for you no matter what happens. Even if the snow falls and covers up the world, I’ll look for you. I’ll look for that smile and happiness you once gave me because no matter what I do, I’ll never be able to forget you. 

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 Alone in the Night I can hear you calling my name, and it still sounds so sweet and tender, but is it really you? Is it the voice that I’ve loved for so many years? Are you dreaming of me, or is it just me thinking about you while I listen to the ocean waves? I can’t stop thinking about you, and I can’t close my eyes without hearing the sounds. I hear the beating of our hearts like when you were still with me. I can hear your heart so close, yet you’re so far away. Alone in the night, I hear everything from the water dripping to the flickering lights. When I was with you, I didn’t bother to notice all these things that were around me. Now that you’ve gone, I hear everything. Alone in the night, I hear you calling my name and talking like when you were lying next to me and were whispering those gentle words into my ears. Those words were lovely because they gave me warmth. Now, however, all I can feel is the cold wind blowing in my lonely heart of love.

Alone Again with Love I remember the times we were together. They were the happiest moments in my life. All those memories were so happy, but now, there’s nothing here with me. I’m alone without you, with no one to talk to. Can you see you’ve hurt me badly? My love for you was true. What’s left to say when you’ve left me? Nights are cold without you, and sometimes I wish I’d never met you because then my heart won’t be broken right now. Had I never met you, then my dream won’t be dying today, and I’d be happy without you here. Had you not loved me the way you did, I wouldn’t have to remember of those loving nights together. Had you not spent those nights holding me tightly and sweetly, I wouldn’t be in pain today. Now, there’s only an image of you and nothing else. The love songs and the passing hours remind me of you. Sometimes I wish I’d never met you because then my heart wouldn’t be broken and my dreams wouldn’t be lost. And alone, I’d be happier knowing tomorrow will be a brighter

All the Way in Love When the lights go out, I’ll think of you. Tomorrow, when the snow begins to fall, there’ll be my footsteps in the snow. I’ll try to remember of those passing moments of the love I miss so dearly. Tomorrow, when the nights come and the lights go up, the roads will be empty. The streets will be lit while I walk alone on the quiet roads. Inside the happy homes, sweet dreams will be made. I’ll walk as the snow falls, and I’ll remember of those days when we walked in the snow. I’ll think back to when we were watching the falling snow, and I’ll think about the love that I’d cherished. Today, that love has died while the snow continues to fall. The footsteps have disappeared as I wander these streets while I think about you, the person whom I’d loved all the way without regrets.

All the Rain in Love Why is my love life always on such shaky ground? I always try so hard to find the right person who’d love me, who I’d truly love, and someone who’d be there for me and understand my feelings. However, I always seem to find true love for one happy moment but then quickly lose that love. I thought I found the person I’ve been looking for when I met you. Happiness was all around us after we fell in love. We could’ve had everything, but then you left. Maybe I was living in too much happiness. Maybe I was in my own reality because love could never be happiness forever. Sometimes it takes several heartbreaks and happy and sad moments before you find true love. But how many more heartbreaks do I have to go through before I find the right one? I always find happiness in love like the sun shining down on me. However, at the end of the day, I also end up finding the rain falling down and washing away my love. 

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All That’s Left One small mistake and we fell apart. One little lie and you said goodbye. It wasn’t my fault that I gave you all my love. It wasn’t foolishness when I looked into your eyes and told you I loved you. You were the only person who really brought the word joy into my life. All that’s left now is a little memory of us like the shadows that we left on those walls. I think about those nights when we walked home as you sang to me. Now the nights come but I’m walking home alone. All that’s left are lyrics to our love songs. The melodies have died like the end of the world. There’s nothing left here but the memory of that warm day when you came into my life. I can always sing the love songs to myself, but they’ll never sound the same like when you sang them to me. 

All Out of Tears What is all this crying for? Even if we cry, love has passed by us. Love is over, dreams are gone, and hopes are dead. Why do we cry when tomorrow has come to an end? The tears we’ve saved for tomorrow have come and washed away all the memories of when love first blossomed. We’re out of tears for our lost love and for the pain we’ve put on each other. The time we’ve saved now has gone wasted along the roads that we’ve shared. 

Age Seventeen I learned to love when I was seventeen. I learned to love like I had never before. The one who taught me how to love was you. You guided me through the sweet words and poems that you dedicated to me. I thought my first love would be complete, but I was wrong. I was too young to overcome the pain of losing you at seventeen. I wanted to be with you forever because you were so wonderful, so tender, and so beautiful. Your words, and even your lies, kept me happy. The day you left me, I didn't know what to do. I hung to the walls crying and remembering every last minute with you. I looked into the mirror and asked why I was without you, but there was no one to answer me. I was seventeen and loving someone was too much for me. Loving someone was great at first, but I didn't ask for pain and tears. If only love was there for me when you broke me down. 

Afternoon of Love The voice that sang to me during those beautiful summer days now remains silent in the stillness of the afternoon. The loneliness of those afternoons without love now creeps up to me. The quiet footsteps were wonderful when you walked into my life. Those beautiful summer days, hand in hand, we walked along the roads of love. They bring back many memories, but now you’re gone. The memories now slowly die away. What will life be like without you beside me? What will tomorrow end with when there’s no one beside me? What’s left when I can never look you in your eyes and tell you how much I love you? 

Acceptance of Love When I fell in love with you, I knew it wasn't going to be like what people said. Some said love was hard, and some said love was easy. I didn't know the pain of loving someone until I met you. Love came so sudden, but with you, it was all I wanted. Your love was all that I dreamed of from a lover. You gave me tenderness and gave me all the passionate kisses when I wanted them and needed love. You loved me with all your heart, but when you walked away, those kisses vanished with the air I breathed. In the game of love, I’ve learned to accept. The acceptance of love, pain, tears, sorrows, and the heartbreaking moments when I’m without you. In the game of love, I’ve learned to accept the heartache and agony of losing someone I love dearly. Can you feel the pain inside me right now? Do you still love me like you once did? All the memories of love, pain, and sorrow still remain inside me. What are you feeling now that you’re without me in your arms?

 A Warm Hand The hands that felt so warm and the arms that held me so tenderly during those cold winter days, how I miss them. I let go of your love, and I can’t blame anyone but myself now that love has left me cold and lonely. I’m like a snowflake melting through the warmth of the sun. How can I ask you to come back when you might’ve already found someone else? I wish I had and could’ve given you more, but now all I can give myself are regrets. I regret that I’d let you go, and I regret how I could’ve loved you more and treated you better. I’d blamed you for not loving me right, but perhaps it has always been me who’d ignored your love. Now the word sorry seems to be like water. Once the water dries out, you can’t get it back. I wish I could take back the words I’d said to you. I wish I could bring back yesterday to make our love more beautiful. But yesterday is forever yesterday, and those days have forever left us. All I can do now is wish for something that can never come back. 

A Love Letter I’m sitting here writing to you with my heart and mind thinking of you. In that place where you’re now, what are you doing? Is the sun shining down on your beautiful smile? Is the wind blowing through your tender hair? Here, the rain’s falling, making it so sad when I have to remember of you. Tonight, when I close my eyes to sleep, I hope I’ll dream of you. In my dreams, I hope I’ll hear your voice and hear the laughter I’m missing. Tomorrow, when we meet again, I hope the sun will shine on us. I hope to walk with you down the roads hand in hand like we always do. Right now, I hope the love from my heart will fill you with joy when you read this letter. I’ll wait for you to write back to me in the loneliness of the night. Your love will brighten the dark starless nights. Your love will burn through the tears in the days to come. The love I have of you in my heart will melt away the fear and the loneliness of being without you. 

 A Song for Our Love In life, who doesn’t have heartbreaks? In life, who doesn’t have that very first time when you sit together with your love and listen to that wonderful love song on the radio? Who doesn’t have that one moment when your love misses your meeting time and you’re standing there waiting in frustration? Everyone has them, and sometimes it turns out bad. With us, the love songs on the radio were very special, especially during those nights when we were far from each other. We sat and listened to those sweet melodies while thinking about each other. Those love songs were our lives, and they were memories I could never forget. I guess saying goodbye is never easy when there are so many memories and dreams in our love. But all dreams and memories must die. No love songs last forever, and no one can see tomorrow now that our love has ended. The melodies have died with our love. I want to sing a song for our love, but whenever I sing, I can’t seem to find any words in my head

A Fool in Love I had never loved anyone like I loved you. Before you came into my life, I never had so many hopes and dreams for anyone or anything. You lifted me up, and you were there with me through all the happiness. You were there when I was down, when I needed to talk to someone. I loved you so much. We used to sit and listen to the music, and you’d dedicated those love songs to me. Our lives were perfect. You gave me everything and never let me feel lonely. When I was in pain, you were the one who gave me the love I needed. Now I sit here all alone in the cold dark empty room listening to the songs. I cry for yesterday. I cry because I’m a fool in loving you.  I’m a fool in love now that you’ve walked away before the songs are finished. You walked away before the night is over. A fool in love to not know the reality of loving you through all the lies you gave me. Your lies pierced through my heart when one day you came into my life filled with happiness, but then you walked away

 A Fool for You I was a fool in love when you walked into my life. You told me how much you loved me and how beautiful I looked. You told me how you couldn’t sleep when you closed your eyes because you kept on seeing my wonderful smile and lovely lips in your dreams. I was a fool when you told me how much my love meant to you. I was a fool to give you everything and to trust you. But how could I have not loved your words? The words that praised me and made me cry. When you told them to me, they went through my heart. I loved you with everything in my life. I was a doll, a puppet, and you were playing your lies on me. The tears of laughter turned to the tears of pain when you told me you never loved me. You never meant a single word you said. Everything you said, they were all so wonderful and so hard not to love. Those lies, they were the killers of love. A fool for you, and a fool to have loved you so dearly.  Even though you don’t love me, I still love you. I’ve forgotten about all t

 A Dream Love is all but a dream when the first kiss comes to you and you wish and hope that it’d stay forever. Love is all but a dream when hand in hand we walk down the road on that one beautiful spring day. We watch the birds fly and watch the flowers blossom along the alley of love. Love is all but a dream when we watch the sun fades away with the afternoon hours. You hold me tight, and I hold you tight. Love is so sweet, yet when we close our eyes, love is all but darkness. A dream I have every night with you or without you. I dream of the kisses and happiness I’d have once I find you. And when I do find you, I’d find the heartbreak because one happy spring day, I’ll wake up without you. The flowers will die along the fading alley of love. Dreams will no longer float like our hearts when we’re in love. Love is all a big dream when one autumn day passing down the same alley, meeting face to face, we realize what we had together is nothing but a dream. Our love was just an illusion

A Day Without Love There’ll be a day when the winter wind comes and sweeps away your love. There’ll be a day when the leaves begin to fall down on me from the dying autumn sky. There’ll be a day when the words that come out of your mouth will hurt me painfully, and this day, I’ll pray our love will last forever. There’ll be a song written for you when you walk away and break my heart in half. There’ll be melodies flying above the sky when that day comes and when you let go of my hands. I don’t know what I’ll do. I don’t know if I’ll cry or laugh when the word goodbye finally comes out of your mouth. A day without love will be a day without sunshine. It’ll be an afternoon without the laughter like those many afternoons when you laughed with me, when you called me up, and when you asked me if I loved you. A day without love will be an evening without the moon. A day without love will be a night without the stars that you once said were my smiles shining down on you. A day without love wi